I'm glad to see the hope alive and well in you -- which is important because your Illini fandom, which like you said is about hope, is the hardiest out there in public view. I must say, when you failed to muster a "Go Illini" at the end of the FTS, I was concerned. Over the years, I heard quite a few very quiet, very despondent "Go Illini"s. But I always heard them. So I knew the patient was alive. Last night, after a loss I too took way harder than normal for a game I never expected to win, not hearing a "Go Illini" was like hearing a heart monitor flatline. But the hope -- and the faith -- endure. Waiting to be rewarded -- someday.